As I slowly begin to question the purpose and meaning of a blog, so does the fabric that holds this subject together in my mind begin to fray.

Over a week ago I broke a few rules I’d set for myself in regards to this blog: I let it get personal. I swore. I let some stuff come to light. If you are really curious, give it a read. You’d probably be wise not to.

Anyway, does this compromise the goals of Networked Media? Or is this the goal of Networked Media? I just don’t know. Does anyone else reach this point in a time frame in which the factors that dictate what that time frame is and where it starts and ends and why it’s there stop making sense? It might just be the vagueness of a ‘blog’ as a record of participation. Yes, this is about Networked Media, but how much is it about Networked Media?

Essentially, you could replace the phrase with anything – Laplace Transform, for example – and you have a completely different subject matter that still makes sense. It just doesn’t make sense! Why do we blog? I thought it was an obvious way of showing that we are taking part in this subject, actively, outside of labs and unlectures. Yet, I’ve put up some uber-depressing post about intensely personal stuff, and is that still relevant? Have I broken some rules that weren’t my own? Am I allowed to do this?

You say we have free reign over the content of our blogs, but we don’t. What we do will be commented upon and judged, sometimes moderated. I can fill a post with racial slurs and homophobic threats, not that I would want to. But doesn’t that make this as reductive as any other form of media?

I’m so tired right now. I’ve been editing for like four hours and my brain is very, very dead.