“Vulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage. Truth and courage aren’t always comfortable, but they’re never weakness.”― Brené Brown, Daring Greatly: How the Courage to Be Vulnerable Transforms the Way We Live, Love, Parent, and Lead

Compared to the previous project, I find PB3 very difficult to do. I’m new to this country and am unfamiliar with people and places. So it took at least a week before finally deciding who my subject is. Even then, I was still unsure what angle the story should take. Only a week before the dateline did a more tangible idea start to form.

This lack of humans as resources also affects my photojournalism projects. I have been assigned to produce a feature article (including photos and text) plus a photo-documentary.  Due to a lack of readily available choices, I looked at local magazines and newspapers to figure out what could possibly be newsworthy. This helps me to be open to everyone and everything in the whole city but now I am spoilt for choice! Even today, I still have one foot out the door. I had chosen a topic that I am not passionate about and thus have no clue how to expand and approach the topic creatively.

There has been a lot of hesitation managing my work these few weeks. Unfortunately, my indecisiveness has resulted in a backlog of assignments and frankly, I feel quite depressed. I hate being half-assed.

This blog post is not meant to be a mindless rant. I am recording what makes me insecure and how I can overcome it. On the bright side, this stressful period has shed some light about my work ethic and stress management. Being more aware, I will continue to learn and shape my approach in a more positive way.

DON’T:
– think that I’m the only one struggling cos there are other students who’ve just moved here
– bottle up my problems
– be afraid of asking “stupid” questions and admitting that I need guidance (still working on this one)

DO:
– continue putting up the to-do lists that help you calm down and focus
– allow myself to be vulnerable; recognise that I am not perfect
– have fun in finding and working with people in/for my projects
– have faith that I am capable in producing creative content promptly
– allow myself to break down because I know I can get back up

“Vulnerability is the birthplace of innovation, creativity and change.”
― Brené Brown