Project Brief 4 – Epilogue

Minimum 350 words reflecting upon your experience of the studio in the context of your own creative practice and final project.

 

  • On deconstructing and analysing the elements which build a world and how it has been crucial to the process of understanding how a story becomes “solid”.

In all my years of constructing narratives, I don’t think enough emphasis has been placed on the specificity of building worlds. Being able to name then unpack the concept of “internal logic” has drawn attention to where the holes in narratives can be and how to fix them for clarity.

At this stage of  Queen A, I acknowledge that it still has some loose ends in terms of internal logic and the world of the boarding school. I did end up focusing too much on the characters/their relationships with each other – neglecting the rules of the world (Kookaburra Green College) they inhabited. That’s where my work has fallen flat, I think, but I am keen to keep working on it.

Tonally, I sometimes found myself struggling with writing the screenplay – now I realise it is because the world was not holding its own. The characters’ personalities were developed but there is currently not a sufficient playground for them to develop beyond what I have pre-ordained.

It was challenging to develop a logically sound world that was still very much set in reality, especially since it involved another insular world within our own. The unusual hierarchies of KGC became very hard to maintain if dug a little deeper – and there isn’t very much in the dialogue to support it yet. Struggletown! But I want to keep going with it.

Had I attempted to pursue my Queen A idea without my current knowledge of world, it would be in an even direr condition! I’m thankful to have had the time to explore this important and specific element of creating a narrative. My understanding of crafting a cohesive story has deepened, so much so that I realise how much more work is needed of me to tell stories that can stand on their own.

  • On the method of writing through and for a lens (especially when writing the “action”)

I struggled with this and I found my own limitations quite irritating. Firstly there was having to reconfigure my brain in regards to the the length of the scenes and the ability of screen work to have such snap transitions in between them. Then there was the matter of creating and emphasising “visual moments” within the story – the required precision of language and imagery needed to communicate exactly how those moments unfolded in my mind were often frustrating to construct.

There were visual moments in my Queen A Pilot Excerpt which were challenging to write: the “split screen” section between characters messaging each other, and the sassy introduction of the Rich Asians at KGC with their limousines and world-is-my-oyster demeanour. The timing of what the lens focused on and how events unfolded had to be clear if not enticing to the mind’s eye. It was like trying to direct and edit images with your mind but also you couldn’t “direct” too much because you’re the screenwriter…gah!

I admit I’ve never had to (properly) write for the screenplay format so this introduction to has been long-awaited. This storytelling-reconfiguration has not been easy but I am so eager to keep working at and pursuing it.

 

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End Credits – FINAL MEDIA ONE REFLECTION

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My true motivations revealed for applying to this course.

i. what you’ve learned?

This semester has given words to all the concepts we have always known but knew not how to understand or analyse. It has been interesting to see how media has evolved over the decades and learn about the trends, history, and criticism surrounding it. I have also learned much about media’s broadness, diverse forms, and omni cultural implications, linking to my developing propensity towards viewing the world through a Media lens. I’ve started observing art in a similar sense too – actively observing and noticing constantly. My other artistic experiences are also naturally trickling their way down to my media eye and enhancing my experience and knowledge.

I’ve enjoyed the opportunities to develop a collaborative voice in our safe Media One environment to prepare use for bigger projects in the near future. With editing, I have also developed an editing sensibility that can only get better with more practice and range of opportunity.

ii. how you learn? 

I learn best when I am able to engage with and expand on concepts in creative, even abstract manners. Naturally the material becomes much more absorbing and exciting, providing extra motivation to do the readings. This remains one of my favourite posts because I was able to approach sound abstractly and consider my own innate relationship with sound.

It was also great being able to bridge key theoretical concepts by connecting it to existing interests. I liked approaching that first sound interview through a radio drama because it sincerely piqued my interest in a medium that I felt alienated to as both a consumer and creator.

I also looked forward to being able to view what the end product should look like and dissect the form and techniques to copy/adapt them for my own. I especially appreciated seeing previous students’ work or, as with the essays, approaching them through SoundLabs or the Video Essay video essay. I find the projects then become less overwhelming and more achievable.

The blogging process has also encouraged me to keep actively thinking about whatever media I encounter regardless of whether a post was ultimately created about it or not – I certainly considered things often! I also enjoyed seeing what my peers are blogging about and experiencing for themselves.

iii. what you found most challenging in the course?

The most nerve-wracking experience this semester was the process of creating the documentary. I found the simple and sweet interview tips appeased that. I had never made anything of that sort before let alone have another party involved whom I wanted to impress or at the very least not disappoint. It was interesting trying to balance the idea that it was my work whilst feeling like I was working for a client who had to approve of what I did.

Advancing my technical skills is also something I still feel anxious about. The more intermediate-level aspects of sound mixing like removing background noise or working in the deeper aspects of Audition was something I found more challenging to improve at as well as how to achieve a more professional “look” of work in terms of handling the camera and editing in Premiere.

Furthermore, the collaborative aspects, though not an extreme challenge, were something I had to consciously manage and improve on.

iv. what you discovered about your own creative practice?

I discovered how much I enjoy and feel an affinity with abstract and/or stylised works – as expressed through my Daisies post and subsequently inspired self portrait, such work has shifted my creative attitudes on an intrinsic level. That brings to mind what Grace said in her PB3 feedback about my “brand” which I found interesting and, in some way, flattering  because it implied that my work had developed some sort of recognisable flavour.

For both PBs 2 and 3, I went through a process of filming much more footage than I would ever need then painfully ploughing through all the useless footage. It seemed my creative practice involved loose plans and a crafty brain that pulled things out of nowhere. Apparently it worked both times but it did feel like an undependable process as well as being time consuming. My creative practice will need to keep searching for efficiency whilst maintaining creatively free.

Many of my initiative posts also feature short works that inspire and urge me to emulate their styles.

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IT’S DONE OH MY GOD

I never thought I would see this day.

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Look at the layers on that video essay cake! And the final graphic at the end just TICKLES me with its adorable perfection.

“…our perceptions of gender are shifting…”

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” …and that can only make our world much more super.”

BOOM. Zoom on the ‘S’. Credits. I am so proud of myself.

Far From Practically Perfect

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On Filming 

There was much trepidation in the days leading up to the shoot day up until the moment I rang Hannah’s doorbell. I made sure I was as prepared and as professional as I could be – double checked all the tips from the media interview lecture AND dressed like how I thought a professional, hip filmmaker would look like (black turtleneck and pleated plaid skirt, fyi). There were some images I had planned like the make up and dress shots but everything else was a free for all. Luckily Hannah is very accommodating and we developed a good rapport throughout the shoot. I had some sort of loose vision, a feel and tone I was aiming for but it was still quite raw. We ended up shooting a couple hours worth of footage. Some were just us talking casually with the camera hanging loosely to develop a more comfortable and friendly environment. I filmed a lot of nooks and details in her house that I thought appropriate and just blindly shot and shot things.

The sit down interview was quite easy and relaxed but the show and tells proved to be most difficult filming wise. It was hard to be still – that was personally my biggest challenge. Next time I will have to just not hold the darn camera because I get too excitable, unpredictable, or (WORST OF ALL) indecisive. Watching things back, there were so many shots that just gave up half way because I must have gotten bored with it or lost hope in it. I need more stillness and calm in my camera/directing manner. I also need much more discipline when it comes to talking to friends. It’s great that Hannah was so comfortable but there were also times when our interjections did ruin what could have been some good footage.

On Editing 

Editing is the thing I love so much but still dread doing. I’ve made myself a playground of footage to play with but with a playground comes great responsibility. I ended up with over 50 clips in total and had to title/categorise each one for easier organisation. The main interviews were in three long videos and I ultimately managed that by recording time marks and topics. I created my own sticky note timeline on the dining table, constantly rearranging them into some sort of logical, narrative order (some straying a little from its original contexts). Editing got very confusing and time consuming because I’ve filmed a lot of footage without knowing exactly what I wanted – it’s like trying to make a good story out of words floating around you and you have to somehow catch them in the right order!

The amount of power in editing also mildly frightened me a little. The interview shown in the final piece has been quite scattered and reordered to create new meaning and that much narrative control freaked me out a little bit. I am now really appreciating editing as another form of creative story telling because editing truly does takes vision, flexibility, and intuition. Seeing my own visions and ideas form, fray, and develop is always an interesting process. Using music as a simultaneous dialogue break/narrative progression as well as soundtrack for the “montage” like fantasies portraying Hannah’s wonderful mind was something that happened organically (and thankfully). Half the time I think I just pray to the editing gods to bestow upon me spontaneous ideas that will save my butt. I need to plan more and not depend on magic film deities, methinks.

Timing was also something I found a nice challenge – by which I mean subtly inserting clips in places that don’t slap you in the face with literal meaning or comically appear when the subject or key word is broached. I didn’t fully succeed in this and some clips still felt awkwardly placed and/or stilted to me.

miss-array: My Self Portrait

My video is very uptempo, colourful, and chaotic, depicting my frantic and inherently not calm personality. I also love performing and believe there are many versions of people all as sincere as the other so I tried to bring a humorous performative aspect of it as well. The aesthetic value was also very important and maintaining a clear tone was a priority during the editing process.

miss-array is made of many short clips, most in fast motion as if on some feverish caffeinated frenzy (which I often am). Shots are fragmented and change at a rapid pace to depict my mind – a chaotic place with too much running through it. The heavy colour tinting of some clips were inspired by the Czech New Wave farce Daisies (1966) which floored my creative mind the first time I saw it. I thought it was an interesting way to portray my tendency to obsess over certain things and also a way to experiment with unnaturalistic colouring. The 1920s film graining was a tribute to my absolute adoration for old films as well as emphasising the farcical aspect of the piece a la Charlie Chaplin.

I think I was successful in maintaining the tone and portraying the mayhem I had originally set out to do. I got the look and rhythm I imagined and am fairly content with it. I had a solid vision of what I wanted whilst simultaneously having no idea about the specificity of the in-between process. I “filmed to edit”, yes, but Premiere Pro was also unfamiliar to me and many of the things you see in the end were figured out along the way, sometimes by accident. I had such little concrete plans that I don’t even know how I ended up with a final product.

I struggled with the variety of sound because I so firmly had the montage idea in mind and found it hard to stray from that when the piece is so visually focused. I also think the piece looks very amateur and would like to refine my style and knowledge so I can portray and experiment without my work appearing so juvenile.