Project brief no. 2: (reflecting on my) reflection

My submitted reflection was included with my video but after seeing other self-portraits and the comments I received in workshop I wanted to write a little more.

 

What worked?
I really liked my videos, even though the quality was low. I’d really like to reuse them somehow (and definitely retake them on a better camera). I was surprised to hear that my photos were my strongest element since I wasn’t particularly happy with the way that section came out. I think my problem with it was the way it worked into the overall piece but it did feel a bit forced. Still, if it’s something that works I need to take that on board. My own, hidden intentions and feelings don’t really matter if the audience perceives them differently.

 

What didn’t?
All the talking! I think in my move away from my abstract first project brief I went too far in the other direction. Narrowing in on one element of my personality and then narrating it didn’t give nearly the scope I saw in other projects. Obviously I don’t want to imitate what they did or take a broader approach because it was the more popular thing to do, but seeing how much they achieved in a minute made me reconsider if such an intense focus was a good idea. I think I could have shown a lot more about myself if I’d taken a different approach.

 

Thoughts on editing
I have so far to go! Although I was pleased to see I’d picked up a few techniques by accident, like sound bridges. I think I’ll focus on my transitions in particular for project brief no. 3 and make them smoother, better timed and varied. 

 

Empty space

The lectorial and the reading on editing left me thinking about something I’ve rarely considered: empty space. The gap between two images and the enormous role it plays is easy to forget, I suppose, because you’re so swept up in the active visual component. Of course, the audience makes assumptions without really realising it — a cut from a woman waving to a man smiling assumes that the woman is waving to him and that the man is reacting happily to her. This isn’t the only interpretation, though; every audience member brings their own history to a film. Similarly, a film can set up an expectation that something different will happen. Empty space encourages us to make expectations that may or may not be dashed.

In my cinema studies class a few weeks ago we watched an experimental film by Jackie Farkas called The Illustrated Auschwitz. It was based around an interview of one woman’s experience of the Holocaust and featured abstract, archival footage (a lot of which came from the Wizard of Oz).

 



A series of stills from The Illustrated Auschwitz

 These small, flickering images are centred in a pool of black; here, the empty space is almost tangible. But Farkas chooses to explore emptiness further, leaving the screen blank for several moments and abruptly cutting off the audio. In The Illustrated Auschwitz, the blank space that encourages the audience to make leaps of their own, essential to editing, is expanded to force the audience to think. It’s used as a moment of silence to reflect on what Zsuzsi Weinstock, the interviewee, has told us. Emptiness becomes more than a vehicle for the assumptions necessary to the development of a film and challenges us to make assumptions about what it would be like, how it would feel, how we might react in these situations.

Project brief no. 2: process

I knew project brief no. 1 was going to be valuable but going into no. 2 with the knowledge I’ve gained from it is really beneficial. As I mentioned in my reflection, I still like the idea of painting a picture of myself from the world that I live in rather than detailing myself – but I decided to focus on the world I surround myself with, rather than the world that surrounds me. It’s a slight distinction but a major one I think. People choose to catch the train or drive, for example, but it’s still about them getting to the same place. But if someone chooses to take a plane to a holiday their destination is up to them.

 

For the first few days I was stuck, which really scared me because I usually have ideas pretty quickly – crummy, unsustainable ideas, but things I can use as a springboard. Eventually I managed to develop my vague understanding of these two different ‘worlds’ into something tangible. I wanted to talk about mountains. For someone who’s been born and mostly lived by the sea, I have a strong connection to the mountains. It’s all about that choice I mentioned: I am surrounded by the sea but I choose, when I can, to be by mountains instead.

 

In the end it seemed a little two-dimensional to talk about nothing but “hey I really like this geographical feature” for an entire minute, but out of that grew the idea to talk about the things in my room (the poster of the Wildschönau Valley is a remnant from that original idea) and then onto reflection and deliberate noticing in general. I thought about the way I think, the things I like to look at, and realised I was usually thinking about these things when I should have been focusing on something else.

 

From there, it was a process of almost interviewing myself and trying to figure out which phrases really expressed how I felt and which were boring or idiotic. I wasn’t overly concerned with the video component so long as I took from my beautiful things in daily life. I love nighttime much more than the day so that was an obvious choice. The lights at North Melbourne Station are something I go out of my way to see, even after a long day, and I always cross the road to walk on the Town Hall/Cathedral side of Swanson str, even if I know I’ll have to cross back again. It’s these little choices that shape my day which is ultimately what I wanted my project to be about: how my personality affects my choices and my life.

Project brief no. 2

project brief no. 2 from Ellie Jamonts on Vimeo.

 

Overall, I found this second project brief to be equally satisfying and frustrating.

 

I’ve had very limited experience with editing and seeing my project come together was very rewarding. I didn’t go in with a particular aim – I knew I wanted to talk about my ridiculous attention span and I knew I wanted to take videos in the city at night, but wasn’t sure how those would work with the project brief. I’m happy with the result, though I can see acres for improvement, and believe I’ve met the criteria.

 

My main concern, which is a strange thing to admit on a self-portrait, is that this is too much about me. I chose to record myself speaking because I didn’t want to be too abstract – particularly since the video largely is – but I worry the sections I chose present me in the wrong light. It wasn’t my intention to come across with a sort of ‘special snowflake’ complex. My aim was to describe the world I’ve constructed for myself – I believe everyone has their own interpretation, shaped by their beliefs, temperament and memories. It might just be me trying to please everyone but it does concern me that my project might be interpreted as overly narcissistic.

 

The decision to leave the section with the tram journey without a voice-over is one I’m glad I made. There was so much I wanted to say (much more than I could in a minute) but I think forcing myself to leave this space empty, in a sense, gives my piece breathing room. Leaving in my original audio choice would have given a more cluttered effect overall and, even if it had remained, wouldn’t have said everything I wanted to anyway.

 

I felt that my inexperience with my editing program (iMovie) and editing in general led to most of my frustration. There are moments in my piece that can only be described as ‘clunky’ and I didn’t have the skills to smooth them out. I think this can only be solved through practice and familiarisation.

Thoughts on the power of editing, the questionable nature of post-its

I’m wary of post-it notes. There, I said it. I think they’re unreliable and never the right size for what you want to write on them. They’re also too expensive for paper with glue on, which makes me suspicious. My personal opinion on post-its isn’t massively relevant to the rest of this post but since I’m probably never going to be able to express my opinion in conversation I thought I’d grab the opportunity. Post-it notes: what have they got to hide?

 

I have to grudgingly concede that they were practical for the editing exercise in this week’s lecture. Editing is something that I don’t have much experience with, as I mentioned in my editing trial post. I’ve always admired the patience editors must have and the massive undertaking of skilfully editing a film but, aside from shuddering over such detail-orientated work, I’ve never thought too much about it.

 

I think it was also helpful in understanding the construction of a storyline. An actor’s performance might mean less that I assumed it did – not to discredit the importance of talented acting. What I mean is that I didn’t realise our understanding of what good acting is is so dependant on editing. A well-acted, shocked reaction can be completely spoilt by a poor choice of which shot is placed before or after it. Likewise, weak acting can be worked around and seemingly improved by a talented editor.

 

I remember my childhood drama teacher pontificating on the importance of reading your before and afters before filming a scene; she gave the example of an actor who’d been happy and relaxed in a breakfast scene only to discover, to his horror, that the scene chronologically before that had been him breaking up with a long-term boyfriend.

 

In terms of what I’ve learnt about editing, though, it could have made the storyline even more interesting. Why was this character so happy after he’d just had his heart broken? Which was fake: the tears or the smile? Or neither? What did he have to hide? What if the phone scene had appeared afterwards, as a flashback, instead of in chronological order? (For the record, in this case they just gave the actor a slap on the wrist and reshot the breakfast scene.)

Project brief no. 1: reflection

After watching my presentation, my table made a really good point, a sort of ‘it’s obvious once you see it’ point: ‘How is this about you?’

 

As I mentioned in my process post, I wanted to detail the world I live in and use that in an abstract way to fill in the blanks of what I actually am. It’s something I’d like to expand on in the future but for now it does beg the question: is inverting a self-portrait to make it a portrait of everything but you being too abstract and sneaky? And does it even fulfill the brief?

 

I think some of my more abstract moments just came off as generic, particularly the audio. Yes, public transport is central to my life… just like most every university student and a great deal of the rest of the population. While it might mean x, y & z to me, when you listen to it without my personal preconceptions all you get is a girl that catches the train. It’s the audio equivalent of drawing a stick figure for a self-portrait.

 

photo

I mean, yeah, technically 

 

That said, I’m very happy with how the video and images came out. While I won’t be going further with the concept, I think my photoset demonstrated exactly what I wanted it to and held a sense of continuity without being too similar. I’ll be adapting the video for project brief no. 2 but I think it was a good representation of how I choose to see the world rather than how it is presented to me.

 

It’s given me a great deal to think about for my second project brief, which I know is going to be a lot more personal. Next time, I’m going to talk about the world I’ve created for myself rather than the world I happen to exist in.

Project brief no. 1: process

I admit it started out as a pretty bleak project. I’d had a long day and my weak ankle had given up, along with my contact lenses, and I was tired and hungry and dehydrated. I decided I’d focus on all my flaws. I could record myself apologising or saying please and thank you ad nauseam, or I could get mum to say that I’m a lousy admin assistant (which is true, unfortunately). My images, which have remained mostly the same, would revolve around the way I see the world, which isn’t too clearly. As I said, it wasn’t a happy start.

 

Flaws evolved into quirks, thank god, as my mood and blood sugar improved. I realised quirks make up a large portion of my day. The way I see the world is defined by my strange little habits and my bad eyesight along with all my other so-called flaws. This was the second stage of my project, which morphed into my eventual focus on my perception of the world.

 

Ultimately, only the pictures summarising my eyesight and one video of looking up at city buildings lasted out. I eventually came to a theme of existing in the world; a self-portrait with the scenery vividly displayed and the subject left blank.

 

Audio: I catch the train every day and wanted to parallel going out and coming home (which ties into my day-in-the-life text component). I don’t drive so public transport is a huge part of my daily experience and has certainly shaped me into a person who can easily adapt to getting around an unfamiliar city. It’s also a lot of down-time to stare out the window and think about just about everything.

Images: My poor eyesight and low depth perception are huge in shaping the way I exist in the world. I’m grateful that most of my problems can be (mostly) rectified by a visit to the optometrist Without a visual aid I’d be (literally) lost. Even with them, having terrible depth perception means I’m constantly bumping into things and tripping over. This constant stream of little embarrassments is incredibly annoying but it’s given me a higher tolerance for humiliation, which is great for karaoke nights.

Video: There’s nothing better than getting your script updated and being able to appreciate every leaf on every tree as something sharp and distinct and beautiful. Not always being able to see the world has given me a deep appreciation of how beautiful it is. I think Melbourne is one of the most beautiful cities in the world and I’m always reminding myself to look up and look out.

Text: There’s a very small part of me that wouldn’t mind staying in bed all day. Getting up and out and really existing in the world is often a challenge — I’m shy, I’m introverted, I’m lazy, whatever label you like. But I’m always glad when I do get out. I wanted to parallel that daily challenge of forcing myself to have a full life, to demonstrate that there’s always a little voice in my head saying, “Nah Ellie, let’s go home and take a nap”. Sometimes I get all the way down the list, some days I get part-way and some days I don’t even start it.

Editing trial

editing prac from Ellie Jamonts on Vimeo.

Le temps de l’amour performed by Françoise Hardy
Lucien Morisse/André Salvet/Jacques Dutronc
©1962 Vogue

Editing isn’t easy. This is my first real go at it (which I think is fairly obvious) and while I did find it satisfying to tie all those little segments together, even this took its time. I can only imagine how painstaking it would be to edit film by hand. It’s based around the theme of COLOUR so I went for a pretty standard approach: the gulf between the conservative elements of the 1950s and liberation of the 60s.

 

As I was going along, I realised how valuable paying attention to cues in the music can be. Watching my first cut something felt a little off and I realised that by swapping two clips there was a much better sense of flow. Transitions made a difference, too, and made it clearer that this vision of the 60s was literally a vision being had by the man driving the car. I did feel limited by the title — I think it looks kind of 2007 Windows Movie Maker — but it got the point across.

 

If I did this again there are a few changes I’d want to make. I’d prefer the colour clips to be more along the lines of the lady in red and perhaps change the song to something a little, well, less polite. I also would have liked to include a reaction shot of the black and white man before the car crashes to make it more explicit that he was reacting to the premonition of the 60s.

 

In doing this I learnt a valuable bonus lesson about saving my drafts, since I hit refresh and lost everything the first time I wrote this post.

Trash

The deliberate noticing exercise prompted me to think about a form of media that’s very nearly always within urban eyeshot: packaging. From where I’m sitting in the City Library I can see the label on my iced tea and on the packet of chips I’m eating, an apple sticker someone’s put on the desk, a Mt Franklin bottle and a packet of gum. Beyond food there’s stationary, computers (does the outside of a laptop count as packaging?), a bag from Zara… In fact, the only non-branded packaging I can see is a banana skin.

“I don’t actually drink full fat coke… here I am advertising coke for free just cos of a pink can.” (image by Hayley Hughes)

 

Packaging is powerful, as illustrated above by blogger Fashion Hayley, who only bought the can to match her outfit during a shoot. I’ve been known to save a good-looking, sturdy shopping bag and carry things around in it, partly because it’s practical and partly (mostly, let’s face it) for the aesthetic.

 

So if packaging means so much, what happens when it morphs into litter?

 

I gave friends and family, very informally, a hypothetical situation. Take two near-indentical products —  Fanta and Sunkist, for example — how would they feel if they always saw Fanta cans crumpled on the ground? Would it make a difference to what they bought? Honestly, my most common response was “I don’t really  think about it”, followed by something along the lines of “if it was common knowledge that everyone littered it, maybe not” and “I wouldn’t want to be associated with it”.

 

People reacted more strongly if they’d seen someone actually do the throwing away: “He threw a whole thing of chicken nuggets out of the car window. They went everywhere, all over the nature strip.” Had they bought nuggets since? “No.” It was an ugly memory, forever associated with McDonalds. My friend didn’t want to associate herself with the kind of people who throw rubbish out of a moving car.

A Torontonian anti-litter campaign: “Littering Says a Lot About You” (image via Feel Destain)

 

My investigation failed to reveal much, unsurprisingly. My tiny sample pool seemed to be more concerned with who was littering instead of what. That said, if they associated a product with a specific act of littering they did think negatively of it. That’s one of the downsides to distinctive packaging; you can recognise it, even when it’s tossed from a fast-moving car. The brighter and more attractive it is, the more it stands out for better or worse.