Final Reflection

My Learning Graph

When reflecting back on the post Dear Future Self, I’ve outlined a lot of writing goals. During this semester I was able to focus on them through my Popular Cultural subject and the task of keeping a blog. By rewriting concepts in my own words I was able to comprehend the reading Blood in the Gutters. It helped me relate ideas in the article to my own experiences I was able to understand them better. By writing posts I’ve not only gained confidence and understanding but it has helped me identify areas I’m interested in. Even if it was just a few sentences the blog allowed me to track what I would someday want to explore further.

When it came to the readings, I found some to be extremely dense and although the blog helped I still needed more. I found that printing out the articles and highlighting material I’d found interesting helped me to comprehend them. I feel that I am better suited to learning environments that support hyper attention, and so being able to highlight and write notes on the paper supports this because I am doing two things at once. I also feel like I learn better when I engage in class activities, or when concepts are displayed in visual forms like videos or pictures. Overall I feel a hands on approach is the best way for me to learn, especially when it comes to new equipment, because not only am I listening to what’s being explained I can also follow along.

The readings haven’t been my only source of struggle this semester as I’ve found myself struggling with failure. During the first lectures it was mentioned that we were going to fail and that it was going to be in front of everyone. It’s been hard for me to adapt to the idea that failure means that there’s something that can be improved on rather than being the end of everything. Fear of failure has also hindered my attempts to experiment more and push things out of my comfort zone. To fix this I’ve tried to approach each assignment as a way to improve and try new things rather than worry too much about marks. With our most recent project (Media Project Four), we’re trying voice recording and broadcasting as opposed to film. This is something new and something that I have enjoyed scriptwriting for and experimenting with how to project emotion and intensity through voice alone.

I’ve also struggled with reflection, as it’s hard to assess something you’ve worked so closely on. For Media Project Three, I reflected poorly on my video because of the bias I had for it. To change this I need to become more critical when reviewing my work and really highlight what I’m doing well and where I need to improve. It would also be good to have a peer or a lecturer review my reflection to make sure it’s formal and unbiased. Another good strategy I am currently undertaking is practicing reflections on my blog.

This semester has been really good for grasping an understanding on not only media, but who I am as a student and how I learn. When it comes to my creative practice I’ve discovered that although I enjoy making media, I am much more interested in the theory surrounding it. With that said I have learnt that brainstorming is an amazing tool that I need to utilize more as it helps focus my ideas and get rid of the ones that are cliched or too close to my comfort zone. In the past I’ve started things late and often given myself no time to explore other options or ideas. For Media Project Four it was through brainstorming that we were able to come up with our idea of the news like radio program.

Overall I am excited with the progress I’ve made and looking forward to the next semester.

Finest Hour

During the semester I’ve found using this blog helpful for exploring my own ideas surrounding media. For instance, this post I wrote on Remixing Art  which allowed me to examine glitch art and the editing of art on Tumblr. As glitch art was described as remixing to create something new and acceptable I wanted to contrast this with remixing art to generate buzz or attention for someone’s personal blog.

I have also used this blog to discuss media that interests me. The posts Audience Participation In Storytelling and Ethics use readings and lectures as a prompt to discuss concepts that relate to games, a media form I’m particularly interested in. I was able to draw on previous experience in my Ethics post to grapple with ideas in a way that I understood, while games allowed me to talk about audience participation in a way to could structure future potential narratives.

This blog has also been helpful for brainstorming ideas. Using the prompt during week 10’s  lectorial activity on Institutions I was able to write a piece on Facebook collaborating with my peers a post.

By articulating ideas on my blog I’ve also improved my ability to reflect in other subjects My Illustrated Auschwitz post was able to combine concepts of editing I was learning in my Media workshops, with a movie I’d seen in my cinema studies course. I was able to use my new understanding of the reading “Blood in the Gutters” to better analyse the film.

Media Project Brief 4

I think we were able to approach this assignment in a creative way that was informed by our research rather than just presenting it. Through brainstorming we were able to move away from a video documentary and onto something new that pushed our boundaries. Deciding on broadcast felt like a risk, however it allowed us to explore the effects that festival programming has on the audience of film festivals in a way that challenged what people would have expected.

By focussing on film festivals within the topic of institutions we were able to refine and present a clear idea in our final product. Film festivals were interesting to me in particular, because a lot of research had only recently surfaced about how a festival programming directly affects its audience. This let us know that our topic was not only interesting but not overly explored, giving us reason to conduct some of our own research. We interviewed people about the three festivals we were focusing on. These results enabled us to rewrite our scripts to include thoughts and feelings from our research group, resulting in a more accurate and informed final product. The interviews also satisfied our want to get out and talk to people as outlined by our collaborative contract.

As helpful as these interviews turned out to be collecting the information was challenging. I often felt uncomfortable talking to new people and unsure if I was asking the right questions. To improve this skill I will continue to challenge myself by conducting more ethnographic research. I will work to refine my questions to create key points in the discussion, but I need to be wary becoming overly caught up on wanting to reach that next key discussion point. This is something I mentioned in my Third Project brief when interviewing Maria. Although I’ve improved I still find myself too eager to jump ahead rather than taking note of how things are being said and if there’s additional information body language can tell. To continue improving I need to slow down when I’m interviewing people and really notice. It may also help to keep a field diary to make note of expressions, body language and tones. Video recording interviews would also help as I could then watch back to see anything I’ve missed that could be explored further.

During the semester I have continually noticed sound as an area for improvement. As it was suggested after our first draft we tested with different equipment and distances, we found these sound tests produced a huge increase in the quality of our work. By draft two the sound was already much more audible because we’d took time to run a test beforehand. This is something I will continue to undertake during my media practice as I can’t stress enough how much our work has improved. Next time I would like to try testing different volumes for voices and an even wider selection of mics/recorders as we were limited in what we could obtain, as we overlooked this in our final project with some audio ended up to soft.

A more problematic area of our final work was our expression of the script overall. In our first feedback session we were asked to give “not only ham, but the whole pig.” We revised the script by pointing out certain areas where the camp could be played up, but ignores the rest of the script. To help improve on expression I think a director should be assigned next time to steer how everyone is delivering their lines and more time to learn the script would also help as we would have been able to worry less about what we needed to say and more about how to say it. Recording everyone separately lost some of the comedic timing and energy was due to us no longer being able to bounce off each other. In the future as it could be beneficial to rehearse together before going splitting up. Another good idea would be including clearer cues in the script. I personally struggled with expression due to my shyness, and often found myself speaking too quietly and not wanting to hear my recordings back. To overcome this I’ll need to push myself to take on more speaking roles. Recording what I’m going to say on my own and listening back until I’m confident will help before I join everyone else.

In our group we were loose on roles and although we still made sure everyone had a task by the end of each meeting, I feel it would have been easier to ensure people knew what was expected of them at the start of the project. Listening to what others have to say is also an important collaboration skill, and had we not all gotten together and discussed our ideas we might have just been doing a simple documentary because that was my way of approaching the task. I am much happier I was able to listen to what Emily and Georgina had to suggest as we were able to all settle on the idea of the news-like broadcast – something I would have in no way come up with alone.