“Crossroads” (Self Portrait) (Wk 5)

Here is my self portrait Crossroads.

And this my my reflection:

In my self portrait titled ‘Crossroads’ I was attempting to communicate where I feel like I am with my life at the time of release. Transitioning to adulthood and having to face decisions I’ve never encountered before is something I am still coming to terms with, and so I used the repeated imagery of paths and crossroads to represent my future and the decisions leading there. The repeated use of my house, especially during the montage including pictures of me on the front porch, shows how ingrained I am with my home life and how my childhood experiences have shaped me. I used a series of shots of me in the same location as a representation of time passing by as I wallow in my adolescent habitat; content yet itching for something greater. I coupled this with the sound of the bustling city to connect the serene past to the busy future and used the sound of the pedestrian crossing signal to communicate my transition between the two lifestyles.

A challenging aspect of this project for me was capturing ‘myself’ as I am not usually an introspective person. Trying to showcase various aspects of my personality meant I had to reflect on my life and view myself from the perspective of my friends and family which was a deeply unsettling experience for me. Not because I found that I am seen in a negative light but because I do not like being the center of attention, which I played on in the project.

An aspect of my self portrait that I feel did not work was the pace of the text due to the time constraint of the assignment. I wanted to tell a small narrative throughout my piece, a mirror of the way I view life as a vessel for story. Yet to fit in the view on life and its impact on mine I needed a fair amount of words so the screen time allotted to some text makes it hard for others to read without repeat viewing, thus impacting audiences a little less overall as a text.

 

Week 4 Tutorial Reflection – Three Handshakes

Jenny, Annie and Jeremy present the media masterpiece “Three Handshakes: A Media One Filming Task”

This task allowed me to see the effect each camera angle lends to a shot, the handheld tracking shot engaged me the most as it invites the viewer into the world of the subject as opposed to being a fly on the wall, separate from the action shown in the first, static shot.

Week 4 Lectorial Reflection

The concept of media can be seen from many different perspectives and Adrian Miles’ presentation that media is a thing, not a meaning is based on an individual’s life experience shaping how they view media. The concept of a separation between a mind and body, that thinking is separate form making, and its outdated nature in current society was eye opening for me in terms of study habits and willingness to take the extra step. Adrian’s thoughts on how thinking about something is not beneficial unless you follow up with an action to reinforce those thoughts shows how a good work ethic and a combination of mind and body is imperative in learning.

Liam Ward’s presentation on editing was fascinating for me. His opening piece on how editors view the process as “about fixing problems” reveals how central editing is to a film’s narrative and commercial success. “If you break it, it creates meaning” is a compelling way to approach editing any piece of media as it exposes the fluidity of a text’s meaning as well as the differences of meaning for each individual who consumes it.

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Having to create scenes in which they could all be interchangeable along the narrative’s timeline ensured that all scenarios needed to be broad without any specific mention of time. The initial conclusion for our narrative was waking up in the hospital at 1am and so to ensure that the sequences could fit anywhere in the timeline they all had to relate to a large accident or revelation, resulting in three various forms of turning points to ensure the protagonist ended up at the hospital. This resulted in a fairly dark narrative which in turn morphed the relatively safe and pleasant sequence of buying flowers into a sombre reminder of death, thus revealing how meaning of a scene is heavily dependent on the surrounding context of the entirety of a text.

Week 4 Tutorial Reflection – Self Portrait #1 Presentation Reflection

As I gathered the images, videos and audio for my self portrait I kept moving back and forth on whether I should try a deep and introspective look at myself or showcase my strange personality. I found a middle ground with my portrait, the images leaned more towards the more abstract and symbolic, the crushing darkness surrounding a barely visible me or the eye glasses devoid of a head, staring ahead at a barely visible crossroads. To contrast that, I used my audio pieces to communicate my outward personality such as my laziness and love of film, the things my friends and family associate with me. Presenting this project to my classmates was more interesting because it allowed me to see various approaches to capturing the self. Some focused more on the abstract while others used their personality to display themselves first and foremost. All the portraits I saw opened my eyes to the infinite ways to approach creating a self portrait through various media. It allowed me to feel more comfortable with what I gathered and to not try to be to ‘artsy’ and just try and capture what others see in me instead of trying to solely attempt to transcend to a art-house representation of myself because that would ring false to me. Defining myself and my personality is something I avoid doing at all costs in my everyday life so creating a project based around myself was difficult as an awkward and extremely self conscious guy so being able to see everybody’s anxieties displayed proudly next to their strengths helped to control my anxious in capturing myself and allows me to approach the second portrait with the ability to understand myself and how to present that to an audience without feeling like a complete fool.

Week 3 Lectorial Reflection

As a person who has ingrained myself in popular media, I define myself by the television shows and films I watch. Understanding the copyright laws surrounding the media I create gave a clear distinction and guide on how to honour those works while not impeaching on them. For instance, I did not know that a copyright is automatic and their is no registration system or need for the © symbol. The distinction of what is and is not copyrighted was interesting as the idea for a project is not protected by copyright laws as it must have a material form such as a book, film, image, etc, for it to be protected.

Paul’s rues for ‘being cool’ on a production opened my eyes to the levels and size of the productions we as students are able to create, compared to the high school efforts of yesteryear. An important take away for me from his talk is the fact that as  lead on a production I must respect and ensue the cast and crew are happy. The organisational skills required is daunting to me but Paul showed me that the first step to a happy crew is to accommodate them for without them there is no production. Some key ones he mentioned were

  • Communication with all participants to ensure everyone is on the same page and understands their role in the production.
  • When location shooting, arrive two hours before the cast and ensure the crew has enough time to set up the shoot before the participants arrive.
  • Ensure you fill out and document the proper location and personal release forms

This last point correlates with the Donovan reading as on page 347 discusses the nature of consent in documentaries. Not ”whether it is right or wrong to gain consent” but ”what we may know and understand what constitutes ‘consent.”’ Having briefly discussed Project Brief 3, where we will have to make a portrait of someone in our lives, this debate on what constitutes consent is interesting. It makes me think outside of the mindset of a filmmaker and into the mind of the subject and they way they may want to be portrayed after giving consent to have their personality displayed to an audience.

 

 

Week 3 Tutorial Reflection

Today I presented first project brief to a group  of my peers. As it was only our third class together and I had not yet seen any creations made by Jenny, Alaine or Aidan I was apprehensive to show mine in case I had not captured and adhered to the project. This was just another instance of my brain over thinking tings as I had a great time seeing many creative and innovative depictions of a self-portrait. The infinite ways that this project could be done really hit me. Alaine’s photo of a fake bird engaged by a shadow revealed her ability to capture the trapped feeling everyone feels at one point in their life. The text portion of Jenny’s portrait showed off her quirky and creative ability to pull things from her past and everyday life to re-contextualize and show off the many facets of her personality today. By reading the text and then telling us it was said by her high school maths methods teacher made me do a double take and realise the other meanings underneath the surface of the evaluation of her person. It seems that Aidan has a creative and deep knowledge of cinematography which he showcased in the photograph of a camera lens seen upside down, allowing the image at its centre to me right side up. It is a beautiful shot the highlights hos perception of his current life, its poignancy matched only by the fantastic way he captured the image.

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Aidan, Jenny and Alaine and I gave feedback on each others work by reflecting on the portraits utilsing the DeBono thinking hats. Most our feedback was under the yellow hat as we were all impressed with the work so we had to make sure we gave critical feedback as well to help improve. The DeBono hats ensured we considered each work from viewpoints other than a positive “well done” view which allowed for helpful feedback to craft better portraits in the future.

My Self Portrait (Wk 3)

Image #1: My quest to find eternal relaxation.
Image #1: My quest to find eternal relaxation.

Image #1: This was a way to capture how most people see me, lazy and a TV and film nerd.

Me against the world
Image#2: Me against the world

Image #2: A pawn against an entire army is symbolic of my feelings towards facing getting a job in the industry while also highlighting how I sometimes feel like the black sheep with my peers.

Only you can see the crossroads of your life.
image #3: Only you can see the crossroads of your life

Image #3: I used my glasses to reveal how I hope people would understand me more if only they could see life through my eyes while the faded tracks in the grass are a metaphor for the decisions faced in life, easy way or the hard.

Image #4: Identity and the future... I really do not know either.
Image #4: Identity and the future… I really do not know either.

Image #4: Simply a way of communicating fear of the unknown and the constant feeling of getting swallowed up by the future.

Video #1: A quick retelling of my gap year, revealing my ideal state of laziness and how I enjoy a quiet, serene lifestyle.

Video #2: Use of a cliched image of driving down a road at night to show a period of change in my life while a 90’s anthem for maturing plays to indicate my yearning to reach adulthood.

Audio #1: The most succinct way to broadcast aspects of my personality.

Audio #2: This excerpt from Harry Potter is metaphorical of his journey into a fantasy life, where he had control for the first time in his life, an idea which shaped my childhood since I first read the book.

Text:

“You see us as you want to see us – in the simplest terms, in the most convenient definitions. You see us as a brain, an athlete, a basket case, a princess and a criminal.”

“Roads? Where we’re going, we don’t need roads.”

“Cool. Cool cool cool.”

I used these three quotes from The Breakfast Club, Back to the Future and Community respectively as I use television and movies to define and present myself to the people around me. The first quote is all about outside source defining everyone they see while the second one suggests a mystery and adventure awaiting in the future while the third quote is simply a way of expressing my feelings through my favourite show.

Noticing Media in the City (Wk 2)

While I, like most of society, am aware of the constant nature of media in this era it is still very overwhelming and surprising when I am asked to confront what that actually means. The task assigned to us was to go into Melbourne, my group specifically outside of the state library, and note down ALL mediated interactions/communications we encountered for 45 minutes to an hour, . Here is a list of what we managed to notice.

-Ad for the movie ‘Focus’ -‘Appliances Online’ blimp -State library signs -Protest for Tibet banners -Chanting in protest for the unrest in Tibet -Free tram zone sign -ING direct ad -Yarra trams -Tibetan flag -Canon camera -’24/7′ biscuits -Superman -Telstra free WiFi booth -Myki -Commonwealth Bank -Cirque de Soleil -Construction signs -Traffic lights -Kiis 101.1 -AC/DC -Twitter -Coffee -Discussion on the protesting -Tibet national anthem -Discussion on cupcakes -RMIT -Dalai Lama -‘California Republic’ clothing -Children’s book festival -Apple iPhone -Samsung Galaxy -Vans -‘Lottas’ shoes -‘Dotti’ clothing -Community Season 6 -Pandora -Spotify -Google -Instagram -Facebook -Weather -Time -‘Harmontown’ Podcast

A game of chess between a group men for all to see
A game of chess between a group men for all to see
Tibetan protest outside of the State Library
Tibetan protest outside of the State Library

Even with the never ending stream of ads, conversations and chanting all around me what really surprised me was how much of my interaction with media was contained on my phone. Delving into the process of noticing allowed me to fully realise how a modern society filters media communications. There is a constant intake of media in our everyday lives but by choosing to focus in on a specific section of this intake, the rest becomes a part of the background, white noise in a world trying to make you notice.

Week 2 Lectorial Reflection

Not being alive during the time in which broadcast production had control over the media landscape places me in a position to favour the post-broadcast age we live in now. The ease of access to information and entertainment is so deeply ingrained in our society that I have heard the phrase “I can’t live without my phone” multiple times in the past year. The free environment of the internet does lean towards the proposition that media is not a ‘thing’ but places we inhabit and is a constant source in out everyday lives.

Yet this presence is not so restrictive in terms of audience choice in comparison to the broadcast age where a limited number of television station aired programs designed to draw audiences away from the few rival stations. The television viewing population were active in their choice of channel but not in the content they saw and as someone who tries to absorb as many cultural touchstones as possible, the internet age has allowed the people to flourish. The huge volume of media output such as user created content is not created through media factories anymore but through individual or networks of creative people who can share their expressions with a click of a button. The majority of these works do not reach as many members of society because they are specific to the creators interest and that entails viewers with similar interest seek it out whilst others never learn of its existence. This contrasts greatly with the mass comprehensibility of broadcast content but I certainly feel that the age of user created content allows for a more personal connection between creators and viewers ensuring that even though a media text is not known by everyone, it still is very important for those who care.

Week 1 Lectorial Reflection

It was difficult to list ten things I would like to accomplish before I receive my degree as setting goals has never been my forte. Yet they were suddenly popping into my head because I realised how passionately I feel about media and pop culture and how eager I am to soak up all the knowledge I can. They are as follows…

  1. Review television episodes and films in a professional and well educated manner
  2. Deconstruct a director’s choices and the relationship to the films narrative
  3. Learn proper script writing and directorial skills
  4. Deep understanding of the relationship between media forms and the pop culture zeitgeist
  5. Ability to translate media from script to screen
  6. Deeper knowledge and understanding of different equipment and software
  7. Create a network between peers
  8. Learn the career pathways and opportunities that may await me in the future
  9. How to connect with a differing range if audiences through media
  10. Understanding of media jargon

The discussion on hyper and deep attention surprised me not through the excerpt from Hyper and Deep Attention: The Generational Divide in Cognitive Modes by N. Katherine Hayles, but the discussion on the topic with other people in the class. I have been aware that the younger generation have become aligned with the hyper attention cognitive styles due the the ease of access to screens and the internet. It is as simple as reaching into your pocket and pressing a button, the distractions are endless and the need to look at a phone when the message tone is heard has become a reflex in a large percentage of the population. Yet I was not aware of how my peers would classify themselves.

I definitely see myself as having a hyper attention, and I assumed my inability to solely focus on a single task was shared amongst my generation yet a few people I talked to were adamant that they had the ability to give deep attention to a task, be that studying of watching a film. This concept seemed so alien to me, with my need to have my computer split screen so I can do two things at once and it made me want to question how students will be taught when there is clearly a huge divide in a class’s cognitive modes. Yet I am ecstatic to be apart of the experience.