August 29, 2014

New Beginnings

Excuse me while I run my thoughts:

I’ve been having mixed feelings on my impending 20th birthday. There’s nothing I can do to stop it, I will be 20 tomorrow, and while i probably shouldn’t place so much importance on age, i wish i could be 19 for a while longer. I cant say i have any specific regrets, but i wonder whether im ready to forever give up teenagedom.

Ive more recently been interested in the idea of the ‘mid life crisis,’ possibly because i felt ive already had one. The feeling that its your last chance to change direction, that youve wasted a portion of your life, and you have to acheive your life goals now before its too late. Many people my age ive brought this up with agree they already had a period of their life similar to this. Is it a product of our current world? A result of the pressure put on young people to choose a path and define thier lives before theyve even defined themselves? Probably. I felt this crisis in my final year of highschool, and it has recently surfaced once again. What am i doing? What have i done? What will i do?

Whenever someone does anything impressive their age is always a factor as to how impressive the thing is. If they are really young, amazing, if they are really old, inspiring. If they are a twenty something… Will my art be mediocre for the next 50 years until im on my decline? Will i even live that long? The suffix ‘teen’ has become so valuable to me these days. Being able to say im a teenager, im youthful, i still have a lot of life to live. But when artistic prodigies begin their careers at 14 i realise how mediocre my art is. Ive been working on a mediocre timeline, advancing ever so slowly and steadily. And although im only 20, have i already missed my chance at being extrodinary? All the skills ive given myself the responsibility to learn; painting, dancing, music, languages, film. Im still falling short. Perhaps im spreading myself too thin. But that doesn’t sound right to me, i think the problem is im not working to my full potential. If i was, i would be far more advanced in all of these skills than i am currently. I like my paintings, i think theyre nice. But nothing spectacular. I just struggle to find the motivation to practice. And thats why ive hit 20 and have a collection of half finished paintings hidden in my room.

When i turned 19, i charged myself with the responsibility of ‘leveling up,’ in a way. Such as in a video game, i wanted to ‘increase my stats.’ Perhaps my expectations were too high. I should know myself better than that. I cant lie, it has indeed been a good year, but i expected so much more of myself. so what do i plan for the next year of my life? my 20?

I know i must get my drivers license, earn more money, and forge a career path for myself. So obviously those goals are the priority. But what do i really want for myself? I need to get out of my head for starters, keeping track of all these projects is too much. So i guess i need to set a timeline. I’m giving myself September off. I have too many responsibilities to internships, uni work and group projects to direct my attention elsewhere. October should be quite intense too. But here’s the responsibility I’m charging myself with. Create something, anything, that i can be proud of each month. It might be a painting, a piece of writing, a film, a photo, a level of ability, anything. but at the end of each month, i want to be able to notice a change or a product.

This year i tried to draw something every day, it was a worthwhile exercise for a month or so, but i found myself struggling to keep up. I gave myself goals in my 19-ness to do 3 large paintings. I only finished one, and am halfway through two others. After reflecting, i found i didn’t work on these things because i wanted to work on other skills for a while instead, and thinking about them was taking up too much of my energy. I just want to get my thoughts and ideas out there. I started this journey when i turned 19, and I’m not saying i have wasted this year or i failed my goals. When i look back, i made a huge improvement from 18 year old me to 19 year old me. I painted a few things, i drew some things, challenged myself in photography, made my first short film, got my first internship(s), met some awesome new people, did well at uni, started learning an instrument, watched some great movies, discovered some great talent, and improved myself in so many ways. I will continue this path, and  refine it for this coming year, and really produce my own content and art.

August 10, 2014

Us Now

I found the subject matter of Gormley’s documentary interesting, though not new to me. I think many young people have engaged in not just social media, but other areas of the internet where people contribute similar to what is shown in the film. Even just today i was browsing Reddit, and found a page where people can post their own stories and experiences on vets and pet care and learn from each other. These build able communities where people contribute and receive something real in return is the most powerful an rewarding part of the internet. More so than networking and consumption of media. 

It was talked about in the Hinton reading that consumers and producers aren’t so separate anymore. I find this empowering, particularly as a media student. In the last two semesters of the networked/ integrated media line, we have been taught that we should not simply be consumers of content. The real excitement and purpose is in creating it, And in the invention of smartphones and other readily accessible technologies this has become possible. But the internet plays the most crucial role of all in this activity. The sharing of what we have created. Sharing our own creations, ideas, experiences and opinions online is so important, because it contributes to a wider collection of knowledge and media that others can benefit from. Being an active member of the online community is so rewarding, and only once you are active do you realise the power and potential this system has. As said in the documentary, the cost for you to contribute to this system is insignificant compared to the benefit you get from it. It’s like the idea that if everyone in the world donated one cent to me, i would be a multi-millionaire. This is a huge outcome, but one cent is so insignificant that people wouldn’t even think twice about giving it away. When people share small amounts together, they culminate in larger things.

An example of one of these larger things is Wikipedia. Though it has low academic reputation, it is easily one of the most reliable sources of information in the world. people contribute what little they know, and thousands of other people check and recheck and source and clarify constantly. The information is most up to date and accurate, not because one really intelligent worldly person is making it, but because hundreds of thousands of people are building it and improving it all the time. In this way, the argument of politics comes in. How this system could be beneficial. The documentary states that taking your lead from 30000 people is a good way of ensuring one person isn’t going to make a catastrophic mistake. The small minority of people in power can not speak for the masses as accurately as the masses can, and this is possible as shown through these online structures. In this modern world, we are able to make these changes to allow the wants and needs of the many to be heard accurately, directly from them.

Something else relevant which was covered in the reading is the idea of citizen journalism. I believe the concept of citizen journalism is fantastic. Relying on wealthy media outlets for all of our news can be dangerous, as they may be biased and in the case of last years election, may be biased toward a particular politician. It is no secret that Rupert Murodch’s outlets were favouring Tony Abbott and the Liberal party, which obviously affected the outcome, particularly in the case of older voters who trust old media more than the youth. In this way, it can be dangerous and misleading to take information at face value from a few single sources. If 30000 people were reporting on it however, people may have a better idea of the situation. Especially 30000 average people who report because they want to and because they have opinions, not because they are being paid to.

Of course there are difficulties and flaws with these theories. They ma be difficult to implement and control, however, this is the direction we are heading in as a society. The internet is still new and unknown. We are still discovering the possibilities and capacity of it, and we should be actively exploring it, lest we be left behind.

August 7, 2014

Film-TV2 Reflection 2

Question 2

I thought it was interesting in the ‘Documentary storytelling for film and video makers’ reading how documentary makers can plan out their story of what they want to film, but never as extensively as a scripted film director could do. “You can’t know where real life will take you, but you can certainly anticipate a range of outcomes and determine whether or not the story holds sufficient promise.” When thinking about my own film idea, i know what i want to explore and i know it sounds very interesting (to me at least), but i cant anticipate how the end result will turn out, because we are not working with actors. Real people talking about themselves or their experiences are much more difficult to work with and whats most important is to maintain good relationships with them if you want your documentary to good according to plan. However, sometimes when things don’t go according to plan, the story can be even more interesting and will take you on a different path. This is why we should anticipate this kind of change and film any experience possible in the process, even if it feels like a tangent.

Something else that interested me was the thought one must put into visuals. Although you cant plan how a documentary filming will go entirely, you need to anticipate how you can make the film a visual experience. Like in drama, the fact that film is a visual medium is important. You must consider B-roll and visual representations of things to keep the audience interested and visually stimulated, even if you cant always anticipate how a scene, event or interview will play out.

August 3, 2014

We Are Legion

We Are Legion documentary

How does this documentary alter your understanding of Internet?

It shows how powerful people can be over the internet. They don’t have to meet in person or have physical protests to wreak havoc on large organisations. It illustrates how interconnected things are online, and how a small group of individuals can make big changes. In a space where money, geography and social influence does not matter, individuals can elevate themselves as long as they have knowledge of the internet and its workings.

How is social media used to create a community of people who share a similar interest and politics?

People can conveniently connect with people over a wide range of things. Boards and groups on the internet, and thus, have no shelf space. There are groups dedicated to any topic and any conversation, and everyone can find their place. They can easily communicate because of this and communities can form quickly and become strong without ever needing to meet or leave their house.

What ideas does this documentary raise in regards to designing an event that asks people to participate and become part of a community?

People will become very involved and jump in on group mentalities if they find something they are interested and passionate about. To gather people and have a successful event, people need to connect the event to something they are passionate about. Also, members should be treated as equals and feel that they are making an impact through their involvement. This is the core of mob mentalities, that through their group activities, they are contributing and making a difference. People are more likely to participate and enjoy doing so if they feel involved in something they are passionate about.

August 1, 2014

Film-TV2 Reflection 1

Question 2

In this course i really want to go outside my comfort zone and take more initiative and risks. Last semester i gained a general knowledge of what the film making process is and i believe i reached my goals for the course. Now i want to take it one step further and become confident in camera, sound and editing, though i would really want to be as involved as possible, so hopefully directing too. I hope to work in a relatively small group, and help out on other peoples shoots too. Ideally i think it would be awesome and a great experience to work by myself, but I don’t know how practical that would be, so ill sit on the idea a bit longer. Overall, i just hope to make something i am proud of, and i hope to learn a lot. I want to get the most out of this course while i can.

Question 5

The sounds we recorded remind me of the city and large public areas. Hearing sounds like trams, people and coffee machines. They definitely suggest the image of a crowded place in the city, very much representative of RMIT where the sounds were recorded. Even in the running water recording from the fountain, there are sounds of the street and people passing by in the background, giving it the feeling of a public space. Other recordings that could be done to emphasise the space are crowd footsteps, possibly trains, cars, announcements, food preparation. All indicative of things you hear and are exposed to in the city.